MBLAQ as 5 members boy group..not 4 members

This story as a continuation from yesterday's MBLAQ's event......as you guys know I've been waiting for them for almost 5 years already...so I think, by meeting them will make me happy *this is what I want.... But I don't know why, I feel so incomplete....something uneasy...I met them, but I feel nothing....I feels like I never meet MBLAQ before.....and after the whole day of thinking, finally I got the reason why I feel like this.... It is because of my own perception... I like MBLAQ as a whole...as 5 members...so when one of the absence, I. Felt lost...I feel this is not MBLAQ I know...4 members of male idol is not MBLAQ...MBLAQ forever 5... So I couldn't accept the fact that only 4 members of MBLAQ was there... I hate myself but that is the fact that I can't get rid of...I like MBLAQ as 5 members...I don't know what will happen if one of them leave for army...and it is always be my dream that MBLAQ will leave for army as a whole...not one by one just like super junior does...so that I don't have to wait for long enough for all of the members to finish their army...max 2. Years then they can start to promote as 5...


I really hope that next time when MBLAQ come to Malaysia, they will come as 5 members...Lee Joon...please be more active as a part of MBLAQ...please don't be like Sohee of wonder girls.... If MBLAQ lack of one member, I will totally feel lost....hmmm...

THIS IS MY DREAM

Okay........let's start with this.....emmmmmm.......I've finally meet MBLAQ  in front of my own eyes...as live!!! After the whole 4 years waiting for them....but......to be honest...it didn't seems real for me....maybe because I stand too far from the stage.....or maybe they just come and leave so immediately like 20 minutes where it supposed to be an hour, or did I focus too much on my fan cam...or did I scream all the time till I lose all my concentration to MBLAQ....or maybe because it feels different since they are so many noise that I feel like listening to their song by myself makes me feel more close to them....or did I expecting much from their performance....or their singing is good enough till it feels like a recording...but whatever it is,I really hope that I can meet them someday....again...outside the concert..maybe in airport or something.... To be honest...it feels like listening to them in YouTube while reading to the lyrics makes me feel more close to them...hmmm...

Oh by the way...one of my lifetime mission has complete....so even MBLAQ come again next time, I think I will not think as hard as now...if I wanna go, then go...but if not, then it's ok....there's those time when I thought to myself "what if I die even before I ever look at MBLAQ in my own eyes", or "if I let this go, then when will I have a chance to meet them again?they soon will be in army, joon are not as active as before...and what if I can't meet them because they already disbanded??".... So if someone ask me 'did you ever meet MBLAQ before.' Then I will proudly say YES even though it is not as perfect as I think....

Well I think I will cry when they walk on the stage...but I did not..and it surprised me to be honest...because a night before, when I listen to their song 'you're my +' I did cried...because I can feel their presence near me...they're in Malaysia...in the same land as me...it feel so close till I can even feel Seungho laying beside me (don't look at me as a pervert..I didn't imagine more than that)....and I breathe the same air as them....I just live 20-30km from them...and to be honest...I cried a lot....but in reality....I have no chance to cry....I am busy with fan cam...screaming...till I have no time to be thankful for being there after 4 years of waiting....

And after I went back home...I feel regretful...why I didn't spend my time forthat 20 minutes to really appreciating since this could be my one and only moment with MBLAQ....but when I watch my fan cam again I feel like 'oh...I was there....I do call for their names...I do hear them singing live..I am the one who record this' and after that those feeling come...I feel very thankful,appreciate all of it....and regret once again...

By the way,I would like to say thanks to my friends...for helping my, accompany me to watch MBLAQ...and also my friend's sister, who drove us there....thank you soo much!!! Thank you for making my dream comes true.....

And for MBLAQ,JTuneCamp.....please do come again...you guys are always welcome here in Malaysia...

LOVE
Nadia........

Am I considered as 'so-called-junior' A+??

Whoaaa....it's been a long time since my last post...loooong loooong time ago...ah well...here I wanna tell you a story...about A+ for sure since this blog are actually for fan base blog A+ *but yeah...later I end up as my personal blog...sigh.......

Ok well...let's begin....actually it's not for the whole A+ fan club it self...*but I don't know if the worldwide fan club also like that...till now, I've never seen any...
MBLAQ finally come to Malaysia!!yeayyy!!!and yeah all of the A+ the active member, a silent member (I am one of them) , and a new member all eagerly wanting to come for their first fanmeeting in pavillion....then there's one fellow asked...'are you new A+?'...........
And my reaction like...."WHAT??!!!"....
Ok here I want to tell you everything....from the moment I know MBLAQ...I guess I have posted about it before in this blog....

We'll I didn't know MBLAQ because I like kpop and I want to like any random group....actually my friend introduce me to MBLAQ(thanks to her for letting me know how amazing they are)...we are having game in school (oct 2009)...and I asked her who is your favorite artist...and she answered 'embeekkk' and I was making joke of her because of that (I will totally kill anyone who call my MBLAQ as embeekk)...then she asked me to check on YouTube a kpop group named MBLAQ...and that was the first week of their debut...and before knowing MBLAQ, to be honest I never ever know about kpop...and then I checked on YouTube as she asked me to do....and what I saw was their debut stage at music bank *i recently found the video*....and starting by that moment, I was attracted to MBLAQ... I followed any single songs and programme they did...but.....I didn't too focused on MBLAQ*as you can see from my posts before* I am more attracted to SUJU and SHINee....MBLAQ's status in my heart by that time is the same status as VIXX in my heart by this time* I followed their activity but not so into them*...I got too excited about SUJU and SHINee until MBLAQ make a comeback with Y (as everyone know..Old MBLAQ make a comeback once a year..not like the recent MBLAQ)...and I fell for Y ....their beats was totally awesome!!!and their MV was super damn cool....and starting by that moment, I started to get into MBLAQ...I watched every single reality and variety show of MBLAQ...I downloaded every single songs of MBLAQ...I buy all MBLAQ's album (including the pricey one from Japan T.T)....and it continue until now.....

So, if you asked me 'are you new A+'....and guess what I should answer you.... I am a fan of MBLAQ since 2009...is it still consider as new??...yes you never see me in fan meet up before...since I went for only once before...for the first fan meet up...and I never saw you there....and to be honest...I didn't actually want to join any MA+ activity... I am happy as a free lancer fans...you know what I mean...I am happy if I just do everything alone...I don't want to join fan meet up for the sake of 'yeah we like the same boys and let's just be friends'....because I know malaysia's fan club did not really active during their comeback....just ask...any MA+ got 200+ email/mnet/melon for the sake of voting during their comeback??(we'll maybe 40% of them have it)...they did buy albums...but did they ever spending their time like international fans did by voting/streaming?? This is why I am more close to international fans rather than  Malaysia's fans...we will share our account...and spending our time by streaming and voting...the awesome part during their comeback is, we can have a chat at MBLAQ's new MV...and if anyone ask me who is my bias...And I will answer, I have no bias since I like all of the member...I like MBLAQ as a whole (that's why I didn't agree with the sub unit idea)...I have no specific reason of liking MBLAQ...it's not because they're handsome...I just have no reason...

What I want to tell here is..it's not important whether you are senior or junior member..but the most important is you willingness of spending for them....your time and your money...if you're 'so-called-senior' but you didn't help during their comeback,then you're nothing..